Saint Andrew's Mission

Our little boy was buried today at Saint Andrew's Mission. The mission donates a place for babies that are born to soon. There is a similar place in Garden City that does the same thing. However, the mission does things a little different. We were notified yesterday that they would be taking Dean to the cemetery today at one if we would like to be there. We wanted to be. When we got to the cemetery Sister Monica met us with his little casket and asked Aaron if he would like to carry his son to the grave. We walked to the grave hand in hand.  The grave was already prepared and the Father of the mission was there to meet us. They were all so kind to us. They blessed the baby and blessed the grave. I've never done any of this before. The other cemetery just sent a note to let us know the baby had been buried and that we could go to the cemetery anytime. I know that we believe differently then Catholics do but through this whole thing I have appreciated the kindness and love we have been shown by the staff at the hospital, Sister Monica, Father Mike, and the grounds keeper. They had Aaron place him in the grave and then we all sprinkled a little dirt in the grave. It made me think of all those women crossing the plains that had to bury their babies along the way. How did they keep going? I hope I can be strong and keep going.

Our Little Boy

Well, here we are again. Saying goodbye to our little boy. I'm not sure why we keep having this trial. I wanted to share some things about our experience, I don't know what else to do. Our little boys name is Dean. This is the name we had chosen for a boy. We were so excited to find out what we were having. Eli knew the baby was a boy. We had a bet and now I owe him $5.00. I feel bad for the ultrasound tech, she knew there was no heartbeat but couldn't say anything. The Dr scheduled to induce last Saturday. After a very long day our little boy was finally born. He was so perfect. His little hands and feet so small. His perfect little mouth was open but he just looked so peaceful. We had such wonderful nurses and our Dr was amazing. It's got to be a very difficult day for them knowing what has to happen and knowing there will be no reward at the end. 

This is his little casket.

These are the flowers that Aaron's mom sent to us. I think they are so beautiful and want to remember them.

This has been and will continue to be very difficult to get through. We feel so blessed in so many ways. We are so thankful for our boys, our family, and our friends. We have a wonderful church family. I have the most amazing husband. We know Heavenly Father loves us. Please know that we love you all and appreciate all that you do. If you feel like calling or writing please do. I just might need to hear from you.